ISNT IT AMAZING?!
Love, Dorothy :)
PS. I hopefully will have more pictures on here now because I got my camera back from my sister who needed it for work!
PPS. I will be in camp next week but will post more when I get back!
Friday, June 15, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
AMTC Update
Hey ya'll! So...looking at expenses to go to the SHINE convention, my family has made the decision to wait until January to go. That way we have more time to fundraise...and...yeah, it was just turning out to be MAJORLY expensive that we couldn't do so fast. It's good though, I'll be closer to graduation, have more time to prepare, and more time to raise money. I am a bit dissapointed, but I really think it is the better option. At least I still get to go! But this way I can be more polished for the big event :))
On the plus side...THIS ALSO MEANS I CAN DYE MY HAIR PINK THIS SUMMER!! hahahahaha! Sorry....this makes me so happy :))
Always His,
Dorothy
On the plus side...THIS ALSO MEANS I CAN DYE MY HAIR PINK THIS SUMMER!! hahahahaha! Sorry....this makes me so happy :))
Always His,
Dorothy
Friday, May 25, 2012
Life Lately
Hello dear followers!
Well....a lot of you probably know this already...but I got accepted into Actors Models and Talent for Christ! I went to an open call audition and auditioned for singing mainly and acting as a second. I didn't even walk for them but they called the next day and said I was a three way fit for singing acting and modeling, which is pretty cool! So right now I am doing intensive training since I'm going on the fast track and going to the SHINE convention in July. I have a lot of training and catching up to do!
AMTC is a launch pad for careers into the entertainment industry with a heavy focus on being a light for God in that dark place.
At the SHINE convention there will be scouts from acting, singing, and modeling companies.
The Convention is in Florida in early July at a nice resort...I'll get to feed ALLIGATORS!! haha
So yeah....please be praying for me as I am very stressed out with my life changing so fast. Also please be praying for financial provision as it is VERY expensive (like, $5000).
Thank you guys for reading!
If you want to find out more go to amtcworld.org
Forever His,
Dorothy :)
Well....a lot of you probably know this already...but I got accepted into Actors Models and Talent for Christ! I went to an open call audition and auditioned for singing mainly and acting as a second. I didn't even walk for them but they called the next day and said I was a three way fit for singing acting and modeling, which is pretty cool! So right now I am doing intensive training since I'm going on the fast track and going to the SHINE convention in July. I have a lot of training and catching up to do!
AMTC is a launch pad for careers into the entertainment industry with a heavy focus on being a light for God in that dark place.
At the SHINE convention there will be scouts from acting, singing, and modeling companies.
The Convention is in Florida in early July at a nice resort...I'll get to feed ALLIGATORS!! haha
So yeah....please be praying for me as I am very stressed out with my life changing so fast. Also please be praying for financial provision as it is VERY expensive (like, $5000).
Thank you guys for reading!
If you want to find out more go to amtcworld.org
Forever His,
Dorothy :)
Friday, May 11, 2012
Wisdom Teeth Musings
Yesterday I got my wisdom teeth taken out. It was a pretty cool experience. While driving home and all looped up on drugs I was singing along to the radio- ha!
Anyway, it was a fun day of eating jello, soup, yogurt drinks, and ice cream and hanging out with Tessa who also got her top ones taken out just moments before mine! We watched Elf and Looney Tunes and had a great time. :)
Today I watched the Season 3 Finale of The Vampire Diaries and it was THE BEST SEASON FINALE EVER!!!! I am so happy with how they put it all together, and...I'm just. So happy :)
Then I went on Pinterest and had a jolly good time and I think now I am going to settle down and watch Supernatural (the new show I am into now that TVD is over).
My Mom and I have been watching Once Upon A Time and Season 1 of 24 and really like both so far.
Well, I shall go to sip my chocolate milk and watch tv now.
Love you all and have a great weekend!
Forever His,
Dorothy
Anyway, it was a fun day of eating jello, soup, yogurt drinks, and ice cream and hanging out with Tessa who also got her top ones taken out just moments before mine! We watched Elf and Looney Tunes and had a great time. :)
Today I watched the Season 3 Finale of The Vampire Diaries and it was THE BEST SEASON FINALE EVER!!!! I am so happy with how they put it all together, and...I'm just. So happy :)
Then I went on Pinterest and had a jolly good time and I think now I am going to settle down and watch Supernatural (the new show I am into now that TVD is over).
My Mom and I have been watching Once Upon A Time and Season 1 of 24 and really like both so far.
Well, I shall go to sip my chocolate milk and watch tv now.
Love you all and have a great weekend!
Forever His,
Dorothy
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Oh Crazy Disaster (My Story-Part 1)
I recently cleaned out one of my side table drawers (does anyone ELSE automatically think BLUES CLUES?) and it was kind of a moment of victory for me. Literally 70% of that stuff was in there because of the mental state I was in about a year and a half ago.
It was November 30th. We had just gotten back from a trip and missed church, so we decided to go to a friend's church's evening service. It was an EXCELLENT sermon on letting your fire for the Lord be as high as it can get. No big deal, right? Yay for surrendering to the Lord! Haha...not in my case. This great idea combined with earlier symptoms (and, who knows, maybe my strict conservative upbringing) spiralled down...down....DOWN into a miserable year and a half of living Hell. Woot.
This could take a long time to explain, but I feel like I should tell my story. Pride gets in the way, but God can take care of that. He can use it to touch somebody even if it's just one person.
First, it was little things, you HAVE TO read your Bible, you HAVE TO walk this way, you HAVE TO wash the counter, you HAVE TO rewrite that, you HAVE TO apologize a million times for this, you HAVE TO pick up that piece of trash, you HAVE TO clean every single inch and millimeter of that bathroom.
Then it started to get worse. My thoughts seemed uncontrollable, I would automatically thing just TERRIBLE things and then go and have to confess them in a prayer only to think it again one millisecond later, over and over and over.....and over....................and over........yeah. You get the picture. It sucked. I'm not saying that I'm guiltless, I am responsible for thinking those things, but with God's help, I turn from evil thoughts every day.
Over a year and a half it got worse and worse. I never felt forgiven, I always felt sinful and guilty. I wasn't assured of my salvation, I second-guessed myself on everything. Then it started turning into eccentric questions: Does God want me to do my school? Does He want me to eat? Drink? Watch Tv? Maybe I should just read my Bible ALL DAY. Maybe then I'd be righteous enough. Maybe then it'd be ok. Then it got contradictory. I'd go to read my Bible and POP! A question asking "What if you shouldn't read your Bible?" Well, then what should I do?!?! Exactly (are you getting a headache yet?).
Late at night, is the door locked? Go check. Five minutes later....HAVE TO check again. If I didn't listen to the have to's then I would be immobilized with guilt. Actually, either way I was immobilized. Nothing was for sure, nothing was constant, nothing was trustworthy. I could read a Bible verse and think it would fix all my problems, then 5 seconds later it would all go down the drain. I could recite the truth to myself countless times but it never worked. It helped for a bit, but it never fixed anything permanently.
NOW I am NOT saying that God's Word is not powerful! In no way! A lot of those verses changed my life, comforted me, and kept me going when everything else hurt.
In this miserable time, I was...well, miserable, but I also grew a LOT closer to God. I got to know His Word LOTS better. I was introduced to the powerful truth of Jesus taking our sin upon Him and transferring His righteousness to His children. I realized that God looked at me as He looked at His own Son (believe it or not, I had never heard this concept growing up!!! Or at least was never paying attention :S)
NOW HANG ON! HERE ENDS MISERY AND SADNESS AND THE LIGHT BEGINS TO SHINE!!
Enter helpless mother who has done absolutely EVERYTHING to help her daughter and has been unsuccessful. At this point we've thought of demons, horrible sins that need to be corrected (JOB), and finally start to think of obsessive compulsiveness.
So Mom took me to a counselor. I'll write another time about my counseling experience, but after a couple months with not much success she referred us to a psychiatrist with the intention of getting me on medication.
I was diagnosed with OCD. Yep, you read that right. It's minor, very different from your normal scared-of-germs OCD. It's more in the mind, I guess.
So I got a prescription, go back every three months or so for him to fill it and, it's gotten all better :). Yeah, the recovery went pretty fast. There was no sudden light shining moment, just a quick constant recovery.
I could talk for awhile about this but...I'll save that for another time.
Going back to the side table thing, I realized that most of that stuff was kept because I thought I HAD TO keep it. It was a victory for me because I am so happy and thankful that God has brought me through so much and that I was able to throw all that stuff out with no regrets. PRAISE BE TO HIM!!!
The whole point of this post is to say that, if you are going through problems, don't be ashamed to go to a counselor or a psychiatrist. You're not weird. I know it may feel like that but, it's not. No one looks at people strange when they go to the doctor for weird bumps in their skin. It's no different with us. If you're having problems, tell somebody. WHATEVER YOU'VE BEEN TOLD, YOU'RE WORTH MORE THAN GOLD.
Forever His,
Dorothy :)) <3
It was November 30th. We had just gotten back from a trip and missed church, so we decided to go to a friend's church's evening service. It was an EXCELLENT sermon on letting your fire for the Lord be as high as it can get. No big deal, right? Yay for surrendering to the Lord! Haha...not in my case. This great idea combined with earlier symptoms (and, who knows, maybe my strict conservative upbringing) spiralled down...down....DOWN into a miserable year and a half of living Hell. Woot.
This could take a long time to explain, but I feel like I should tell my story. Pride gets in the way, but God can take care of that. He can use it to touch somebody even if it's just one person.
First, it was little things, you HAVE TO read your Bible, you HAVE TO walk this way, you HAVE TO wash the counter, you HAVE TO rewrite that, you HAVE TO apologize a million times for this, you HAVE TO pick up that piece of trash, you HAVE TO clean every single inch and millimeter of that bathroom.
Then it started to get worse. My thoughts seemed uncontrollable, I would automatically thing just TERRIBLE things and then go and have to confess them in a prayer only to think it again one millisecond later, over and over and over.....and over....................and over........yeah. You get the picture. It sucked. I'm not saying that I'm guiltless, I am responsible for thinking those things, but with God's help, I turn from evil thoughts every day.
Over a year and a half it got worse and worse. I never felt forgiven, I always felt sinful and guilty. I wasn't assured of my salvation, I second-guessed myself on everything. Then it started turning into eccentric questions: Does God want me to do my school? Does He want me to eat? Drink? Watch Tv? Maybe I should just read my Bible ALL DAY. Maybe then I'd be righteous enough. Maybe then it'd be ok. Then it got contradictory. I'd go to read my Bible and POP! A question asking "What if you shouldn't read your Bible?" Well, then what should I do?!?! Exactly (are you getting a headache yet?).
Late at night, is the door locked? Go check. Five minutes later....HAVE TO check again. If I didn't listen to the have to's then I would be immobilized with guilt. Actually, either way I was immobilized. Nothing was for sure, nothing was constant, nothing was trustworthy. I could read a Bible verse and think it would fix all my problems, then 5 seconds later it would all go down the drain. I could recite the truth to myself countless times but it never worked. It helped for a bit, but it never fixed anything permanently.
NOW I am NOT saying that God's Word is not powerful! In no way! A lot of those verses changed my life, comforted me, and kept me going when everything else hurt.
In this miserable time, I was...well, miserable, but I also grew a LOT closer to God. I got to know His Word LOTS better. I was introduced to the powerful truth of Jesus taking our sin upon Him and transferring His righteousness to His children. I realized that God looked at me as He looked at His own Son (believe it or not, I had never heard this concept growing up!!! Or at least was never paying attention :S)
NOW HANG ON! HERE ENDS MISERY AND SADNESS AND THE LIGHT BEGINS TO SHINE!!
Enter helpless mother who has done absolutely EVERYTHING to help her daughter and has been unsuccessful. At this point we've thought of demons, horrible sins that need to be corrected (JOB), and finally start to think of obsessive compulsiveness.
So Mom took me to a counselor. I'll write another time about my counseling experience, but after a couple months with not much success she referred us to a psychiatrist with the intention of getting me on medication.
I was diagnosed with OCD. Yep, you read that right. It's minor, very different from your normal scared-of-germs OCD. It's more in the mind, I guess.
So I got a prescription, go back every three months or so for him to fill it and, it's gotten all better :). Yeah, the recovery went pretty fast. There was no sudden light shining moment, just a quick constant recovery.
I could talk for awhile about this but...I'll save that for another time.
Going back to the side table thing, I realized that most of that stuff was kept because I thought I HAD TO keep it. It was a victory for me because I am so happy and thankful that God has brought me through so much and that I was able to throw all that stuff out with no regrets. PRAISE BE TO HIM!!!
The whole point of this post is to say that, if you are going through problems, don't be ashamed to go to a counselor or a psychiatrist. You're not weird. I know it may feel like that but, it's not. No one looks at people strange when they go to the doctor for weird bumps in their skin. It's no different with us. If you're having problems, tell somebody. WHATEVER YOU'VE BEEN TOLD, YOU'RE WORTH MORE THAN GOLD.
Forever His,
Dorothy :)) <3
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Thankful
Father, I'm really glad I met you. I'm really glad you changed my life. I really glad I get to be loved by You. I'm really thankful that you took my punishment when it seems like all I do is do it wrong. Thank you that it's never too late to turn around.
(Yes this is a Taylor Swift song and it is secular, but I really liked these lyrics. I think they apply to meeting God)
I feel like this is how my walk with God has been: I look back on my life and see how He was always there.
Love you Jesus! xoxoxoxo
Monday, April 2, 2012
:)
Waiting for my tv show to load as I *enjoy* my faint internet from whoever the Williams Family is... :P
How is everyone doing?
I have been busy with school and stuff. Semester classes are ALMOST over, so working to get things done.
I got a job! My brother manages college pro painting in my town and I got a job cold calling for him! I basically go to people's houses and ask them if they want to schedule a free estimate. I get payed pretty good , it is only 6 hours a week, and it is really fun to go with the other teen, so I really like it!
After I finish my classes I have to dig into my grammar really hard and finish half the book by the end of May when Summer Break starts. It will probably be really hard. Pray for me?
I am also going to start studying for the ACT. That is sort of exciting I suppose. :S
Can't believe Junior year is almost over. I'm actually almost a SENIOR!!! Wow.
(Anyone ever seen that Hannah Montana episode where they rant on saying "BECAUSE WE'RE SENIOR!!!"? Yeah, well, Miranda and I are TOTALLY going to do that!)
Dog training is going really well. I actually think he is making progress! That's great! We are in advanced now and will probably retake intermediate when we're done. I took him to a park where my friend was having a get together and he did REALLY well (except for barking the whole time he was tied to the table while we were playing ultimate frisbee, but he loves frisbees and he loves people, so I can't blame him too much)!!
LOVING Britt Nicole's new album GOLD!! It is a great Christian pop album! Have listened to it about 5 times straight since buying it. It is SO good. My current favorite songs are Gold, Look Like Love, and Still That Girl. Oh, and Stand!
You should check it out and, of course, BUY IT!!!!!
Also REALLY been into Mat Kearney....his singles have been SO GOOD and I think I will buy his album soon! Check out "Down" and "Ships in the Night"!!!!
I think that is all I have for now....
Always His,
Dorothy
How is everyone doing?
I have been busy with school and stuff. Semester classes are ALMOST over, so working to get things done.
I got a job! My brother manages college pro painting in my town and I got a job cold calling for him! I basically go to people's houses and ask them if they want to schedule a free estimate. I get payed pretty good , it is only 6 hours a week, and it is really fun to go with the other teen, so I really like it!
After I finish my classes I have to dig into my grammar really hard and finish half the book by the end of May when Summer Break starts. It will probably be really hard. Pray for me?
I am also going to start studying for the ACT. That is sort of exciting I suppose. :S
Can't believe Junior year is almost over. I'm actually almost a SENIOR!!! Wow.
(Anyone ever seen that Hannah Montana episode where they rant on saying "BECAUSE WE'RE SENIOR!!!"? Yeah, well, Miranda and I are TOTALLY going to do that!)
Dog training is going really well. I actually think he is making progress! That's great! We are in advanced now and will probably retake intermediate when we're done. I took him to a park where my friend was having a get together and he did REALLY well (except for barking the whole time he was tied to the table while we were playing ultimate frisbee, but he loves frisbees and he loves people, so I can't blame him too much)!!
LOVING Britt Nicole's new album GOLD!! It is a great Christian pop album! Have listened to it about 5 times straight since buying it. It is SO good. My current favorite songs are Gold, Look Like Love, and Still That Girl. Oh, and Stand!
You should check it out and, of course, BUY IT!!!!!
Also REALLY been into Mat Kearney....his singles have been SO GOOD and I think I will buy his album soon! Check out "Down" and "Ships in the Night"!!!!
I think that is all I have for now....
Always His,
Dorothy
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